Remains Of Love...

Those silent nights, those screaming days,

piercing my soul in 1000 big ways.

How many times I wrote to you?

I wrote down my emotions & they seem to be few.

Everytime I live, I just want you,

but you melt yourself & drip like a dew.

10 months till date, I’m away from you,

I can’t think of anyone better & new.

Give me a reason why you left me?

Give me as many you have, one, two & three.

Do you have someone better than me?

What is the reason that you left me so free?

Was it my action that hurt you so bad?

You dropped me like a burnt corn & let me go mad.

Ask the mornings, don’t I miss you?

 Literally speaking, I feel déjà vu.

Ask the nights, it has seen me crying,

Slowly in my blanket, my emotions dying.

I write you a text, assuming it’ll breathe life in my emotions,

Not letting them die, which is a false notion.

But still with hopes of you returning back,

I stuff my dead emotions in my torn life-sack.

They fall apart & get scattered on the ground

 I throw my heart out to gather them around.

I know you’re stubborn like a grease-on-silk stain,

Time is not lost & nothing’s gone in vain.

Standing still, I’m awaiting your return,

Foliage turned ash of a dead French fern.

Come back my love, look my heart is so weak,

Don’t cut it across & roast it like a steak.

My love was no deal with terms & condition,

You put down the seal & you get the recognition.

I let my dignity weigh down for you,

letting my ego get skewed on barbeque.

With no dead hopes, I allow myself to say,

may you get the desired, profoundly I pray.

Now being self aware & minimizing the drama,

Slyly rubbing salt on my wounds & living back the trauma.

I can’t pretend to be sick with a headache or stomachache,

Now I can’t pretend because my pretentions will look fake.

I’ve spent my life alone, walking on dark roads to random places,

And later you won’t find me because I’ll be lost in those dark traces.

**I just want to say, that I love you with my true heart but by the time you realize my true love, i'd have been turned into ashes...!

with Love, from Love, for Love,

-a.p. (17/10/11)