A Mocking Dialogue after Defeat in Love (on Valentines)

(time- 11am something)

Me: “Hi. So hws ur day planned?”

(awaiting reply for long, but no signs. Then again I send a text at 5pm in the evening).

Me: “Hey not even a reply! I aint horrible (smiley)”

(again no reply. I again send a text at night around 10.30pm while sitting at the seaface).

Me: “Hi (smiley) Hope alls well! Hw was ur day?”

(Now my cell phone beeps)

Him: “Same as urs.”

Me: “Mine wsnt good! Still hovering around @ sea face.”

Him: “Gud. Wat @ ccd?”

Me: “No.. sitting @ d sea”

Him: “Omg! Ccd kit oh waat lagayi phir!!!”

Me: “jst wnt 2 tel u dt my lyf hs becum mess.. dnt feel lik living nemore.”

Him: “watch sex & the city. U will learn more if u havnt.”

Me: “u think its all funny?”

Him: “Hav u seen d movie? May b u hav seen d funnier part of it… But der is much more into it dan any1 can learn. Watch it over again today u will understand more.”

Me: “y r u doing dis 2 me…don’t u luv me nemore?”

Him: “I gues u never understand me, wat do u want? Lose a frnd or lose me. Choice is al urs 2 undrstnd or not to undrstnd & make me d worst prsn of ur lyf who gav u d most painful moment. GN. SKRD.”

(he has this habit of writing GN (Good Night) & SKRD (Sweet Kisses & Romantic Dreams) which ofcourse he learnt from me.)

Me: “I’ll never forgive myself for dis… I lovd u the most in dis world bt I dnt deserv u seems though.”

Him: “U r not undrstnding lyf May b its u will undrstnd it later”

Me: “u want me as a fren or ur life-partner..”

Him: “who was wid u till now? Frnd Or Life-Partner?”

I knew him for more than 3 years. He had proposed me & I was confused to nod or not. But I did overcoming my fears. I had faith in him & I took the first step in love. I didn’t have to see the whole staircase, I just took the first step & he mocked at me. There weren’t any stairs further. I was fooled. But still I strived, I put in my efforts, I gave more than my 100%, I had been true to his ideals. This alone was worth my battle with Love.

I hear a voice within me say, “you cannot paint”, but then by all means, I paint & that voice is silenced. I can’t afford to lose hopes on love because I dream dreams with my man & I’m ready to pay the price of my emotions to make them come true.

I hope God pity me.